I'm lying here in the darkness, but not willing to close my eyes. Instead, tears are flowing from them. 

We're supposed to meet at 12 tomorrow,  but then you call me and tell me you have a meeting and so we had to push us back to 3. I can't even get angry because it's not your fault. I'm not upset about it, I'm upset about it because I know it's bound to repeat. 

Today you got upset because I was busy dancing and out with my friends that I didn't talk to you a lot. It doesn't mean I didn't think of you. It is my fault though, I'm sorry for it. But put yourself in my shoes. For two weeks, this is how I've been feeling. When you've been studying and I don't dare to disturb you even though I miss you, because I know you need to concentrate and I want you to study hard and do your best too. We can hardly talk for some days, and yes I do get a little upset, but then I think again that it's not that you don't wanna talk to me, you have your reasons and you're busy. But as long as I know you're thinking of me and have me in heart, I'm happy to just silently support you. I think I got used to it. 

There were so many things today that I know you wanted to tell me. When I finally had the chance to ask you, you were so tired that you said let's leave it for tomorrow. I asked to skype, but you didn't want to either. If I can't make you feel better at the crux, then what's the point? Then again, I know you just want to rest. And yeah you need rest. I understand and I want the best for you too. Even now, I'm supposed to be sleeping but I can't, but I can't tell you either. I don't wanna call you up because you still have a paper tomorrow and if because of me you lose sleep and not do well, then I can't forgive myself. 

You know what? 

I miss you. 

But I know it's just gonna get worse. 

And you can't help it either.

I can't do anything but be sad. 

I guess I'm being sensitive, don't mind me. 

I'm lying here in the darkness, but not willing to close my eyes. Instead, tears are flowing from them. 

We're supposed to meet at 12 tomorrow,  but then you call me and tell me you have a meeting and so we had to push us back to 3. I can't even get angry because it's not your fault. I'm not upset about it, I'm upset about it because I know it's bound to repeat. 

Today you got upset because I was busy dancing and out with my friends that I didn't talk to you a lot. It doesn't mean I didn't think of you. It is my fault though, I'm sorry for it. But put yourself in my shoes. For two weeks, this is how I've been feeling. When you've been studying and I don't dare to disturb you even though I miss you, because I know you need to concentrate and I want you to study hard and do your best too. We can hardly talk for some days, and yes I do get a little upset, but then I think again that it's not that you don't wanna talk to me, you have your reasons and you're busy. But as long as I know you're thinking of me and have me in heart, I'm happy to just silently support you. I think I got used to it. 

There were so many things today that I know you wanted to tell me. When I finally had the chance to ask you, you were so tired that you said let's leave it for tomorrow. I asked to skype, but you didn't want to either. If I can't make you feel better at the crux, then what's the point? Then again, I know you just want to rest. And yeah you need rest. I understand and I want the best for you too. Even now, I'm supposed to be sleeping but I can't, but I can't tell you either. I don't wanna call you up because you still have a paper tomorrow and if because of me you lose sleep and not do well, then I can't forgive myself. 

You know what? 

I miss you. 

But I know it's just gonna get worse. 

And you can't help it either.

I can't do anything but be sad. 

I guess I'm being sensitive, don't mind me.