It's just that I dont know where I'm going wrong. I tried, and I thought I could do it. Maybe not. Then I comfort myself and say, oh, let's just take it as another learning experience. Well, how many more learning experiences do I have to go through? I'm just so on the verge on giving up on myself. What for am I doing all these? It's just mostly for myself. Nobody else cares as much. They tell me to lower my expectations. Should I do that then? Sometimes I know what I want is impossible, but I try anyway. It's funny, how people say, oh just try, if you never try, you never know. But you know what, each try is a chance used. When you use up all your chances, will you still have chances left? I don't even want to try anymore. I am so so tired. I was never good enough, and I should have never thought I could ever do it.

All my life I've struggled to make myself someone that matters, because I don't want anyone to just overlook me again. So many people have come and gone, as if I didn't matter. But now I just feel myself slipping into the darkness  again. Where has my self worth gone? You know what? I don't care anymore.

 I'm too tired to keep on fighting for nothing. 

It's just that I dont know where I'm going wrong. I tried, and I thought I could do it. Maybe not. Then I comfort myself and say, oh, let's just take it as another learning experience. Well, how many more learning experiences do I have to go through? I'm just so on the verge on giving up on myself. What for am I doing all these? It's just mostly for myself. Nobody else cares as much. They tell me to lower my expectations. Should I do that then? Sometimes I know what I want is impossible, but I try anyway. It's funny, how people say, oh just try, if you never try, you never know. But you know what, each try is a chance used. When you use up all your chances, will you still have chances left? I don't even want to try anymore. I am so so tired. I was never good enough, and I should have never thought I could ever do it.

All my life I've struggled to make myself someone that matters, because I don't want anyone to just overlook me again. So many people have come and gone, as if I didn't matter. But now I just feel myself slipping into the darkness  again. Where has my self worth gone? You know what? I don't care anymore.

 I'm too tired to keep on fighting for nothing.